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hahahaha. That sounds really annoying!

Beyond annoying :'(

The snow pissed me off today.

Haha I used to play Call of Duty and I was so bad when i first started...and the guys were talking about me too! but it was hilarious they were like:

'OMG YOU FUCKING SUCK! WHY THE FUCK AM I STUCK WITH THIS STUPID MOTHER FUCKER?!'

and they were taking it so seriously I was laaaaaughing, it was great.

I might buy that game just for the lols.

It's actually pretty fun!! well call of duty 4, never played any others.

I just started playing again today. The boys are a lot less mean now that I use a girl name...

part 1

Kayla you have XBL? what the fuck?? give me your gamer tag I'll add you. :>

People on xbox live are so fucking retarded. i mute EVERYONE i play with unless they are already on my friend list, I hardly even bother with anyone.

also yeah if you're a "girl" everyone on XBL goes batshit crazy. "HURRR A WOMAN THIS IS THE CLOSEST I WILL EVER GET HURRR BETTER BE EXTRA NICE"

mabel and richard also have XBL.

part 2

Edit: Editing for length. After editing this I see that originally it was Approx. 5x longer than it is now. Seriously it was fucking massive.

I wouldn't say I'm pissed off, more like I feel pissed ON. My car is broke, I was in a (small) fight and I'm not a violent person. I'm calm, peaceful, relaxed. Not a fighting type. I may possibly find myself without a home soon, and my crazy fucked up uncle is supposed to be getting out of prison shortly. Shit stresses me the fuck out.
Last but not least I'm fuckin stupid in love with a girl who doesn't love me. Honestly this is the worst of all of these little miracles, this is gonna make me sound like a little bitch but I cried myself to sleep when she told me she loved someone else. Mi corazon solamente conoces soledad. And sometimes it feels like it will continue to feel that way forever. This kind of rejection has left me with a deep sense of loneliness. It fucking plagues me. It's only augmented by the rest of that bullshit.
What's really bugging me is this girl. I can honestly say I love her. I truly CARE about her. That she doesn't feel the same way about me is just devastating. Makes me feel so fucking insignificant.

But I understand. We are friends at the moment. I spoke to my sister and she gave me some encouraging advice. She told me to be patient and to not give up. Right now I'm treating this girl like a friend. I just want her to see that I care about her. I told her how I feel, she told me she still loves someone else (an ex but I'm not so sure about exactly how "ex" he is, get me?).
I told her I respected that and didn't want to fuck our friendship up. That would just kill me, I adore her. Like I said she makes me feel things and think in ways nobody else can. (nothing sexual about that mind you!) Sex isn't what I want from her, acceptance is. I want her in my life. I'm 23 and have never met a woman that has had this effect on me. I've met women I liked, and women I had feelings for, but never like this.
My sister gave me a little hope. All I can do is be patient I guess. Very difficult though.

Good thing this place is dead. Otherwise everyone would see my little bitch side.

Part 1: Nope. PS3.

Part 2: That whole situation really sucks. I read what you wrote before you edited it, and it sounds to me like your brother deserved it. Seriously. Relying on another person to get where you need to go is stressful enough without that other person being a jerk about it. As for the girl, any advice I would give on that situation would be terrible, so I won't even try. I've been with the same person since I was 15...

PS3?! :<

What the fuck you read all that shit? I srsly thought it might have been a bit weird so I edited it, also because I think I pretty much gave away who "she" was LOLS don't say anything plz.
Well anyways give yourself a pat on the back for reading all of that, it was huge. Like ridiculously huge. NOVEL LENGTH.

My bro and I never got along very well but I'm not spiteful about it. I used to antagonize him a lot when we were younger but I don't anymore. He resents me for it so I get a lot of random uncalled-for shit from him. I'll admit I know he's a drama queen and I like to push his buttons, but I do that sort of thing with everyone. Srsly. And I only fuck with him if he starts fucking with me first.
And hell yeah about relying on other people for rides, I HATE it. Monday through Wednesday we had been riding to work with a buddy of ours (all 3 of us work in the same place.) So now I totes owe that guy gas money! Tuesday he pulled into a gas station and I felt like a dick because I didn't pay for his gas.
Thursday and Friday I rode with my bro and you can just imagine what that shit was like.

Also, what's up with everyone I know being married since they were -20?! :<
I have a very good friend whom I share a lot of personal things with. She's like a mom to me. She KNOWS me. I hadn't even said anything about any of this to her and we were just chatting the other day. She said "you seem depressed." and I was like "kinda." she considered it for a second then pondered aloud "it's about a woman isn't it?" and I thought to myself this chick reads me like an open book!
Regardless, I asked her about the whole "ever been in love with someone who *appears* to only like you as a friend?" but her advice wasn't very useful at all, perhaps it would have helped if I had explained the situation to her. I really only asked her "have you ever been in love with a friend?" but her answer to that didn't help. She got married when she was 15 and has been married to that same guy to this day. My sister got married when she was 18, she had only had one other boyfriend before him and it was only for a couple of months. (though the story of her husband-to-be and his attempts to court her where very encouraging.)
A few other people I know have been married since they were under 20 too.

As far as the girl goes... I'm at a complete disadvantage right now because we live 200+ miles apart. Communication is difficult; she's not the kind of person who is glued to a computer.
My plan is to just be patient and to show her I really care. My problem is I focus on her too much, I think, which can be intimidating/annoying, if you know what I mean.
I'm 23 and to this day I've never met a woman who doesn't annoy me in some way. I've met girls I liked but after getting to know them more I'll realize there are things about them I hate and I'll end up losing interest fast.
This girl is special and I've known that for a while now. I've met her parents and their awesome, which is also new to me; I'm NOT a family man. I can't stand my OWN family, let alone friend's families. These people are different. Her parents seemed to like me too.

I can't force her to love me so all I can do is wait and hope. I know that sounds corny but I don't care.

I think she's ignoring me but I could just be overreacting.

Hate being all emo and shit like this. GLAD NOBODY IS READING THIS.

aww dude hope things get better soon for you!!!!!!

big hugs for andy

Too bad this is the internet I could use a hug.

MAN I'm such a little bitch. : p

come down to london in july and you can get a cudddle.

I kind of wish this place could have one great big IRL meeting.

my fairly new headphones just broke....

me and doug are meeting up with tom in july.

I just TOTALLY destroyed my dinner. I'm so hungry, and everything just got fucked up, and now the whole apartment smells like burnt food, and I gotta go buy some takeaway, which I can't really afford, in the bloody snow and cold! No use taking my car, I will have to dig it out for an hour and then drive 3 minutes. I'm pissed. And hungry.

IT'S TIMES LIKE THESE I MISS THIS FORUM! =(

I fucking hate snow. :<

i hate it when i burn my food

Tom <3
Andy <3

Sille <3

Did you ever get anything to eat after all?

If it makes you feel better, I haven't eaten all day. I ate a small bowl of spaghetti, now my stomach is like all fucked up from being so hungry all day.

Didnt think the gig tonight would end at midnight, there aren't going to be any trains home. Fuck.

Bloody smoke alarm goes off when I make toast, but when there's actually a fire, nothing happens. Grrrrr

dammit i wish that kate nash tour was going near me

My boss is a big arse fucking cuntflap shitbox tosspot.

what did he do>

Well, I came into work with a mega hangover, broke some stuff, and was called a retard. Haha!

break more shit!

having to take sick days. i'll be poor soon.

I should have started studying for my Chemistry test yesterday.
Still haven't started, it's 9 pm and the test is tomorrow.
My teacher will NOT be pleased.

Somehow watching live concerts online with some tiramisu and coffee is more exciting then studying the mechanism of ademine and carboxyl acid reactions..Buargh.

Our external hard drive shitted itself and can't be saved. All my music gone, cept what's on my mp3 player.

omg that sucks!
that's my worst fear...!

That's one of the reasons I still buy physical CDs. They feel more secure somehow, as you can always re-upload them.

same here!
I wish I had an unlimited supply of funds so I could buy all the ones I still need in my collection!

There's always a positive side to everything; in my view, having unlimited spending power would at least slightly erode the pleasure of buying music.. The more expensive/difficult something is to get (in relative terms), the more special it ends up being to me. That's the second reason I buy physical CDs, I like the fact that I need to get out of bed, walk to the store and flip through countless CDs to find what I am looking for. I think it's more fun than to click a few buttons on iTunes.

Unfortunately, at the moment my obsession with physical CDs means that I have to wait months (torture!!) to get the music I want.. because Belgian stores do not sell Finnish music, oddly enough.

yeah i've gone back to buying cd's after about two years of downloading and then losing it all eeeeek

rain rain go away come again another day

I burnt my finger pretty bad! hurts like hell

I feel like shit and I have no friends IRL.

awww hugs for you mabel
good to see you back!

I'm always around on AIM. Not always on XBL, I've been bored with video games. :<

ah! why do I always fall for the 22+ girl who's in a solid relationship? dang it!

Is this the summer meet up for UK peoples? Cause I still want that to happen

I wish we could to a road trip and meet up with US people too!

Don't be sad Mabel and Andy! (i'm a bit late on this).

Mabel lives in Canada. I live in Texas, which is directly on the other side of the country from Mabel.

If any of you guys wanted to do a US meet up just let me know. I'm totally down.

Come to Phoenix and I'll go.

I bet I could make it to Phoenix in like 2 hours. B>

If you didn't mind. <:3

Bring Jordo with you.

yeah i'm still up for it!

Totes. I got to visit her in Feb. She invited me to see Flogging Molly with her, so I went to Houston and we went to see Flogging Molly. My first show. Had tons of fun.

The three of us should organize a meet up some time.